The Ice in my life that chills my heart

2010-01-25T09:47:00.000-08:00

Finally I'm back,today was a fun day.guess what?It's my bro ron's birthday...had fun with steamboat...deadbeat now as it is like 1.50a.m. in the morning and i have schooling tomorrow,My bros have all deepen my heart to devote to them.All the times we had together is like piecing up all my teenage memories...Memorable times carved into my heart that I'll never be able to erase it away.

It's like 4days away from my 1st month anniversary...haha,gonna be fun and loving!love my baby girl...Money crisis is coming to me nowadays,cigarettes,money to go out,eat,they are all crushing on me like landslides that I can't even take it in an instance and overwhelmed me like the a tsunami crushing on to me...I just couldn't take it anymore sooner,I'll die man!hais nevermind...It's really insane i know,but I'm trying hard to lessen my sticks to save my cash to return all to my friends back...

Obsessed with my baby girl lately,having troubles at sleep because of her...been thinking non stop...i love her and I'll treasure her alot with all of my heart,I hope to last.Sometimes we do have instincts that he/she is gonna be the one that you'll be spending your whole life in...I'm experiencing it now and I really hope that the instincts that told me isn't wrong...my dearest sweetheart I still wanna say I love you and I can't bear to lose you in my life.

It's about time,I should have some good rest.nights!Hoping to start afresh again later for all of my lessons...

2009-12-29T00:24:00.001-08:00

Hey!I'm back!since when did I post something...time flies~for 1year already...I love you my babe ^_____^This few days I got alot of things to do,interview for my space design course and the drawing test is today...Didn't draw very well,Kinda shag...I'm scared I might fail omg...LOL anyways bye bye~

2009-12-19T02:39:00.000-08:00

Disappointment in this home,all this while this house is an empty shell.What I'm trying to do was to have some space of my own,now den I found out that all adults are stupid...You'll never know how stupid they can be,not well prepared that they will come to this situation,everyone must learn from their mistakes right?it takes time,maybe long maybe very fast...they thought they can tell you by their own experience?they have come by before that they gone out with frens late at night or not even coming back to home and they are expecting you not to experience that?Are they jealous or what...they thought they were right,they thought that we teenagers are dumb or what,we all have brain please,i don't think you know even how to do a math question,doubt me with what you're good at joke!

2009-12-13T10:58:00.001-08:00

Dam worn out after this few weeks of work,never even had a nice sleep.Today will be my hibernating day LOL gonna rest like crazy...Single for almost a year already,seems sad but at least I got much more time to cope with my stuffs and carry on maturing myself...Time to wake up and find my future.Couldn't drag anymore as I'm a 16 going to 17 next year already,fate will either bring me to ITE or Sec 5.Damn!Earning more cash so that I can buy my stuffs...

Life with friends are still the same,happy and no worries,working together having problems at work.Really hate that the fact that I'm already at society but this the right time to prove that myself that I'm going to a going-to-be-adult.Fine then,I'll carry on and I won't give up so easily...

Haven't been posting since a period too,timeless LOL.Have lots of them but they are not mine they just come and go,even when I'm typing...Thinking hard lately too.Tired and time to take a nice good long rest for another upcoming war LOL...Bye!

2009-11-25T09:19:00.000-08:00

Finally!I felt like posting something but nothing to really write LOL.Work work work,no time to even rest down LOL.Friday is my bro b'day! haha...But I think he's not coming out as he said...I very sway at every b'day wan so I don't wanna come out,sibei sien sia...

Time really flies,fringe getting long wooohhooo!december cutting my hair,wait very long first den straight away cut nice nice...I hope so la LOL.Boring sia,money earn liao also buy clothes go out play LOL.

Btw,time to post something about my love life LOL,still single...waiting untill abit sick and tired already lols...desperate LOL jk lah.I'll be waiting for a soulmate as long as I can,someone who I can really die for or someone that is worth me dying for...

I really gotta sleep already it's 2am and I have to work at 12 tmr...TIRED AH...LOL haha kay bye~

2009-11-13T21:33:00.000-08:00

Had a nice rest from yesterday...Damn friday's customer can really kill a person,the whole restaurant is packed and still having people outside waiting for seats,I really serve untill crazy..

Nevermind,put that aside..Working life,the feeling of really coming out to the society...Time has passed so fast..from sec 1 to now,it's like in a blink of an eye time...Waiting for my results to come out and moderate my scores...

This is just gonna be a short post haha and I've got a few songs to share to you guys...If you are bored or having free time,please feel free to go and listen.

Taylor swift-fifteen
Faber drive-When I'm with you
Faber drive-It ends

Nice songs for me haha,shall stop here...

2009-11-11T22:23:00.000-08:00

It's been long since I've posted something,kinda busy lately,with my class chalet,my work and my friends.Been working so hard for extra cash lately and slacking with friends much more than ever.

Currently,life is smooth,everything is fine.Had peaceful life for quite a long time,holding cigarette and blowing a puff out of it.Learned something new..."making 'O's"in a puff lols.Cool stuff isn't it,but you guys don't be tempted by the smoking temptation LOL.

Kinda find life very empty too without my other part,but never mind...At least I have great friends around me,fooling around,smoking around and slacking rounds n rounds Fun uhhh...

So girls!if you see this,I mean that I'm desperate already...If you want my number,call this number
1900-112-6868 LOL...just joking la...Nothing to write,pull long the post.

Gotta go~
'Time has pass,yet we're all still here'

2009-10-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

Time has passed,
I have grown up more than ever,thoughts,maturity,age and mind.
Seems like everyone are breaking down,family and friends.Problem couldn't just stop,everyone must still live on.A mere hope,can make a person think positive,without it we're just a mere corpse moving without hope and determination to move on with life.Life with ups and downs will balance us,there is no word as forever in this word...

Haven't been posting for a long period,almost forgotten that I've a blog here..Shall take some time to post a long one.

I'm currently very bored,secondary school life is gone too,I'll definitely miss it because there is only once in every life time.Friends are just departing each other,maybe years down we'll all forget each other.As I said before,"friends just come and go" this phrase really makes some sense.Look at ourselves,how cold are we?Our bodies were made to flow with blood,warm blood and not like a snake,which is cold blooded with just a thought of plain survival.

The time now s 9:26pm,my whole body is aching because of the rigorous training back then on saturday.MMA rocks I can say to the whole world,incorporated with many fighting styles.Devoted to the arts of fighting,but,I'm weak -.-=.0-.- LOLs...

Gonna end now,rest and watch drama.
Bye~

2009-10-14T06:23:00.000-07:00

2009-10-14T06:13:00.000-07:00

It's been so long that I've posted something,shall post some words here.
Telling you here,the story is,not I want or don't want to but I've yet prepared to have a relationship.
We've been talking to each other for almost a year already.But,I am yet able to take care of even myself,cash flows,putting effort,loving you,I'm all not ready yet.

Wait,wait for me there.You can choose to leave,the door is always there for you,I won't drop a tear,because I will be strong and let you go and hoping that some other guy which is million times better than me will be there for you and taking good care of you with love and cherish you as must as he cherishes himself.^____________^cheer up!haha

Geez...Feeling so sleepy,gotta buy food to fill my empty stomach which is grumbling at me.Hmmm,what should i eat later?haha see how it goes,I have alot of desires,but they are just desires,everybody's desire are different haha.

Okay shouldn't post for long.My stomach's gonna kill me soon,stupid human body!LOL haha.
BYE BYE~

2009-10-05T04:47:00.000-07:00

This stupid world

2009-10-04T14:20:00.001-07:00

Haiis,Chemistry...Don't think can make it anymore...

2009-09-26T00:52:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my birthday,still unsure of whats going to happen on that day.This is gonna be a short post as I am too lazy to type and gonna watch some show or rest later because of the day before,went to ron's house.Did alot of stuffs yesterday,swimming,suana?(forgot the spelling),boxing trainning and exercising.Got my leg injured badly,bleeding profusely at that moment but fine now,still find some acute pain sometime,maybe internal injury?LOL,cannot be haha.Tired now,Gonna rest down and use my eyes only to watch the show I am watching currently called Dou yu(fighting fish)LOL direct translation haha,find it very nice and interesting.

BYEBYE,hope that tomorrow's gonna be a wonderful day.

2009-09-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

小宇 - 终于说出口

放飞心情

你终于说出口
其实你早就已经不爱我

为什么要低着头
你知道这玩笑骗不倒我

可是这不是玩笑
是要逃避你离开我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过

或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中(Yeah)
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由
我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
没什么需要被原谅
我笑得有些牵强
你知道我总是能够假装不难过
Oh不想看你那么累
多希望再给我机会
颤抖着我的手
握住的只是风

我还能做什么
你已经不爱我
我一直都爱着你
难道这还不够
我还要做什么
你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看着我
一心想离开我
oh no no...
End

A nice song...

2 more days,is gonna be the day that I was once born 16 years ago.Hope there will be friends celebrating for me although I insisted on everyone to study first.

The time now is 12.31PM which is 0031 in the morning,gonna get some rest later.Looking on some ite courses,and aspire to be an interior designer someday when i come out to work...Planning to open a firm of myself by 40.Hope I'm successful,I don't want to be looked down upon.Wishing that someday I might get successful and making a stable family and live happily.

If I can't earn more than $3k per month I won't intend to get married.Because I rather be single if I earn so little.I must be determined to earn more money in future...

Should be getting some rest now.Tired,spent about 5min blogging here.Listening to songs.
My thoughts are deniable I must go sleep already.

2009-09-21T08:18:00.000-07:00

红豆-方大同

还没好好的感受
雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白
什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手
走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后
学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你剥红豆
熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享
会更明白相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受
醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右
你才追求
孤独的自由

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

Nice song,everybody should take the effort to go youtube and check the song out
I rate this song 9.3/10

Haven't been posting for a few moments as I was kinda busy plus lazy to put the effort to post something on.

Spending the whole lot time with friends out there,hanging around,working some odd jobs to earn some patty cash to spend lols.Been finding that my father had been so ridiculous,scolding me for nothing,talking with me senselessly and being so sucked up,thinking that I am still very childish.I know what steps I am taking,I don't need to seek advice from you,I just need some care and concern from you,rather than controlling on whatever I am doing.I have the free will of myself,I need my own freedom,I am more than you thought of me.People just go on looks,I look very blur,but I am not,I am just observing whats happening around me,the faces and the actions.

Don't spare a thought of me though,I don't need your comfort,you're not an understanding dad.
Shall stop this topic before getting it laid to an insult of him.

It's been very long since I have a girlfriend,but I won't sob for it.I will wait for her,to appear in my sight and my physical existence.I'll be waiting for you here in the corner of the world.

The steps are deep,but I will try it deeper,I will take more dangerous steps in order to be afraid someday.I'll change for the better when the time ripe.

Shall end it here,and a goodbye is never gonna make it end.

2009-09-16T12:05:00.000-07:00

Got our Art N-level paper 2 question already,
5topics,decided to take 'Revolving'

Found some artist reference,pictures and some information..
Gonna draw a ferris wheel,and all my props are ready and gonna draw out my preparation works with all my heart into it...Trying to aim high and score an A2 for my art,hope that I could do that...

Knowing that the stars are holding you tonight,I shall wish you all the best for your future.

It's late 3.10a.m in the morning,I think I am not going to attend school tomorrow because I've plan to pick up a 'temporary' job,earning 30 dollars maybe...

Hoping that I'll cope with my studies too,wishing that you're fine and having a nice N-level result.I don't expect myself to be able to go sec5 anymore with the process I'm working...

Lately,I've been very tired,easily tired.Spending my time in school taking long sleeps and missing out precious knowledge.But even if I'm awake,I wouldn't be able to study well either...Be cause the tiredness caused me to fall out and miss out alot of things...So I rather spend some time on resting and listening clearly with every word I could hear...

Time to sleep,waking up later...Had my time with chen wei slacking around in 'chap lao' so late untill now.

I could finally grab some sleep.

Sooner or later,I would break down of malfunctioning of my body with the time of rest I had everyday...

Bye..

2009-09-13T11:35:00.000-07:00

It's a long long day,gonna stay awake for the whole night,oh my god,tired and lethargic...
I think I won't be able to do that,because I'm preparing for a sleep at 3a.m already

Without having the another half of myself,I felt so empty,thinking about every second of what I am gonna exactly do...But,I guess I'll have to wait then...Everything's fate,hoping that someday I might found my soulmate,a mate that I can share my heart,my problems and my pride with...

Shall post till here

2009-09-13T02:20:00.000-07:00

It's been long since I've posted,
spending the past few days playing nonsensical stuffs,guess what,it's maple OMG...
But kinda addictive because I've been earning quite alot of millions lately,
Gonna go out and slack later,
Went to ECP yesterday with chen wei!...
Had a nice supper and a stick...
Fun sia,Almost time's up
Thinking about what to write about,ah!...Gonna work my very hardest to attain a good N-level cert already,it's time to work on studies!Times are short,but experience are very rich...
Taken some time learning beatbox too,learn some scratchings using wind techniques OMG..
It's fun...Gotta learn more,someday I might make it out famous and loud!LOL
Beat with me!

Gotta go,
Bye bye

Father's birthday

2009-09-08T02:08:00.000-07:00

Today is my father's birthday!8th september xD
Happy birthday father!I'll always love you...Seems gay,but I really mean it because he brought me so big now...
Cooking alot of stuffs lols...
shall stop here I'll post another one later on...
It's gonna be way fun to be imagined LOL

Time to post!

2009-09-07T08:01:00.001-07:00

LOLs,suddenly feel like posting,but,ermmm...ain't got any topic to start with,so I shall go random with my words.

Early in the morning 6 o'clock~LOL
Just joking around.

Okay,back to the topic,
Today,had N'level exams...took chinese essay writing and paper 2,it was hard!Omg,A chill in the spine that made me fear to fail...It's like the judgment day of my life,my future,my everything.
If I would fail,then I'm my as well...gone...High hopes are on me,I gotta pass and prove to myself that I could do it!But,I'm certain that I will make it someday...Not for myself,but for my love ones and brothers...This few months is gonna be really the last few months that I will see my secondary schoolmates and maybe some friends,gonna be missing them and crying on my bed.LOL,I'm not gonna be a weakling or sissy,must move on and never look back...

Cries upon a star,hoping that fate would change my life to the better...Pick me up and I'll be utmost best in my performance to whoever that is far superior than me!HAHA...

Shall end it here.
As I said!time is short,don't waste time on this nonsensical stuffs LOL...jokin' I'm wasting my time here too if I say that,shall take back my words

tomorrow's exam

2009-09-06T09:33:00.001-07:00

tomorrow's gonna be a very long day,
with exams going on,stress,tired...passed by to post some of my feelings here and settle down for tomorrow's big day and currently working out on some beatbox basic beats,
Found out that I lack of most basic beats.
Working on it,and finding some remedies to cure my problems,
haha,sleeping real soon,have my slumber and going to wake up early and revise on some social studies work and improvising on it!Work hard,someday I will make it in life and take care of my future-to-be soulmate,LOLs I am thinking so far...

Consuming everything that I can really take in in the crucial moments in life,with exams going on and studying everyday and night,working my very best for every subject I have,
Currently also,waiting for my art paper 2 to come,and I'll have to take my precious time to work on the preparation works and finally,into the exam venue,prepared and well equipped...

Not so much problems recently,but stress are coming,so I am really blessed now and then.
Empty in heart,yet found my another half to take care of,this few months,my cash flow isn't that smooth either,so I feel that right in this moment,I am still okay with everything with me and myself,don't have to really find money to go out with girlfriends and entertainment.

Rather peaceful...

Although sometimes I think about you,but think about it...
If I don't move on,how can I face you when my life has ended...
With much agony and grieve...
I respect you no matter what happens,Because I know that you're a great person I've met in life and I'll never forget what you did to me...

Little words but strong meanings for you,
A million words can't be even fit to describe you,
you're the best of the best-est!

Times are short,the clock is ticking,as my eyes are closing too,
shall stop here and sleep...
bye!

I'm finally back!

2009-09-05T20:27:00.000-07:00

After weeks,
my father finally paid the internet fees.
And after that,
I flashed down to my blog and post,
finally FINALLY,
I can watch movies using funshion,
surf the internet and lastly talk on msn LOL.

This few days made me abit stressed out,
I can't imagine that I quarrelled with my paps almost everyday for something,
but now better already,
and just nice,
today,
it's rainning and my father cooked me a porridge,
with a strong scent that smells like heaven,
eating it now,
with an extra you tiao,
More heavenly LOL,

okay shall post untill here,
I'm gonna have my breakfast with porridge and you tiao already,
hungry,
*grumbles*

Sleepless nights,weird dreams

2009-08-27T05:35:00.000-07:00

Life was great lately,
things are more smooth sailing...
Time has passed,

I would still say that the miserable me have alot of things to say,
But I just can't say,
My mind is cracking on something even when I am sleeping,
Alot of things happened,I just screw it up,
Nevermind,
Forget about that.
Had weird dreams lately,
like,when I was in the dream,I dreamt of carrying my cigarette box to sleep and I forgot to
hide it,then when I saw my father,I quickly hide under my bed,
and I got up soon after that,at a shock state LOL.
Was it my mind that was affecting my thoughts?

Carried alot of weird dreams lately,
think that maybe it's the cause of the sleepless nights I had,
Gahhh,weird

Thinking of the friends so far I've had in my life,
alot of them are friends that I rather not met before,
I don't like a few friends,
but I won't state their names out,
they should know..

Maybe,I would go ECP later...
Going there to relax and feel the sea,
to get rid of the misery of sleepless nights LOL,
I am afraid of insomnias xDDD
I'm having heavy eye bags.

Gotta take a long rest,
hmmm,maybe 3days?
Too long,alot of friends will say I'm m-i-a-ing LOL..

Okay,I'll stop at here,
times are short,
the clock is ticking...
Shouldn't take so much time blogging...
May post sooner or later

What i've finally thought of.

2009-08-25T05:35:00.000-07:00

Trying to get over you,
think i should forget the thoughts and move on,
I won't be delaying my time,
b'cause my time is precious.
Not that I feel that missin' you is a time wasting matter,
But,
I just feel that we're not fated together,
your life is yours,and mine is mine,
A mind filled with nonsense,
Absurd feelings...
Pathetic,tired,sick and time consuming.

You and I,
Are worlds apart,
I've decided not to think,
but is only about you,
B'cause I won't be a man who can't be moved,
I must move,
I must not waste any breath of life,

Brothers and Family,
My most important left and right,
I can't possibly let them hit each other,
I'll feel the hurt,the pain...

To the course of nature,
everything has its origin...
you and me,
everyone,

Things have changed,

Love like never before,
Work like never before,
Study like never before,
Live like never before...

The will to live,
Keeps you burning,
You'll feel the pain...
But must carry on,
Nothing in this world is smooth..
Think before doing...

I'll write till here,
Sleeping,
Having sleepless nights,
Tired and sick of everything...
bye

2009-08-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

Feel so tired...
After a long day of studying,
Kinda going crazy at the last maths period,

I think it's about time i go M-I-A LOL
i was just joking,
Not going to do so,

Hungry,thanks to my dad,LOL,he cooked for me...it was so filling...
Maybe gonna sleep after the meal,

Counting down,the day that I'm moving,So excited and so looking forward it...
Nothing to write anymore...Gonna stop here now...

Normal

2009-08-20T07:27:00.000-07:00

short day,
nothing much really happened..
Was planning to go to sleep after this post,
hmmm...
Not knowing what to post,
because it's like a common day...
had fun,and learn things too...
Well,things weren't so bad after all,
it turned out quite greatly,
luck has changed abit,

Wish that things are smooth everytime..
haha
positive to life,
things aren't so easy as you think it were...

Next week,
Exams,
Prelims are getting back,gonna stress very badly...

As the time is ticking and as my eyes are slowly closing,
got to have some deep nice rest...
Nights

2009-08-19T08:39:00.000-07:00

So many years have passed,
it's like a second after i was born...
Till this day I did alot regrets and guilt..
But till then,I managed to make it till this day,
Till this day,

It's more like a blessing than a pain,
I get to taste alot of stuffs.
Sweet,sour,spicy and even bitter.

We must not just have sweet,
bitter must also be there somehow,
to make you notice that you have worked hard for the sweet.

Time flies,
they don't wait for a puny human..
So we must be able to pass setbacks...
People just fuckin' stop and not move on,
It's useless for you to let people pity you,
Change your attitude somehow,
you'll make it somehow...
Don't waste your time in this Earth...
To which somehow or who created the earth.
And created fuckin' beast humans to live and become
inhumane in this life and make living vast and remorseful.

People,please wake up and know what you guys are doing?
As the world and time just cannot accept your setbacks and helping you to get up...
I don't fuckin' giving a dam to those who thinks the world is owe-ing him everything..
Hate just generate hate...
Please think carefully before you do anything...
Especially you gerard,if whatsoever you saw this.
I hope you would really know the real fact of the world,
I won't wait for you,the world isn't gonna wait for you either...
wake up...Don't take everything as a dream...
Even it is,make it a memorable and unforgettable one...
I speak of you because I really want to let you know how stupid the world can be...
Don't be the same like the stupid humans in the world...

2009-08-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since I've posted something,
Gonna talk about a topic about friends...
Are friends really there for you always?
Or they need something that they don't have and want to get it from you...
Powers are everything in this world,
Without any power,who will want to befriend with you..
If anyone who doesn't believe what I've said..
so be it,live in your world..
because no one will pick you all up...

think before you do anything...
Treasure your thoughts and choices,
it may lead you to something...
Something you like,or even dislike

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words

A good friend is hard to find, hard to lose, and impossible to forget.

You don't make friends, you earn them.

A motivation that made me wants to study

2009-08-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

In order to have a brighter future,I have planned a few routes of awesome plannings,
Plan to study and get an O level cert,And get to a better design courses like interior designs,fashion design or just design course...

Or even,finish this year take a ITE course like business-ing or food industry...Because every humans have to consume food so,this job is never dying LOL...business is for also a good course because my ambition is to make my business big and sell lots of stuffs...But i don't think it'll work HAHA...

Today,had Sakae Sushi with clique...Had a nice,fulling meal LOL everyone there was bloated...
So,went on slacking awhile and discussing about the future-going-to-be job but still haven't confirm
but the pay was high...and discussing how are we gonna use it...
Plan to buy Iphone,
A good and branded wallet,
A branded watch,
And alot of clothes...
Most of all,leisures HAHA

bye,gotta go...sleeping
Eyes are tired and so is my body...

2009-08-16T10:03:00.000-07:00

I can say that I'm missin'ya...

A day of swimming

2009-08-16T05:20:00.000-07:00

Back!
Spent about 1hr 30mins on study...
Maths and English
LOL
after that,we went on on swimming...
there were 6 of us...
GG,CK,KC,KY,HRY and ME...
We were very violent out there...
The life guard keep their both eyes on staring at us...
they whistled till they came and warn us that its dangerous and will be kicked out of the pool if
we do it again...
After that?we gone back to the same way...
V-I-O-L-E-N-C-E
fun man!LOL
had waffle after the swim
still very hungry now...
waiting for dad to cook ready

Bye Bye...

Morning

2009-08-15T21:05:00.002-07:00

Greetings,
just woke up,having my breakfast which is very fulling.
Another new day...
Trying very hard not to think about you...
but instincts made me do so...
So I think I'll leave my feelings in that same spot...
HAHA
Although you're not by side nor maybe even remembers me...
Nvm..As long as im still conscious of my feelings
Im happy and contended with what i have now
Life is full of regrets...
But you can't regret when something is already done...

Morning

2009-08-15T21:05:00.001-07:00

2009-08-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

some of the past times photo...memories that I help gerard move house

FUN breaking in the door without keys...

haha

a jetty near changi?LOL forgot already,its been very long...

Went to fish on that day..

how fun and interesting life could be uh?haha

If friends can remain like photos...smile and never stop...

They will remain as friends forever..

But time aren't stopping for anyone of us...

So,look ahead and never look back

The inside thoughts of mine

2009-08-15T07:08:00.001-07:00

People,just can't be treated nicely...

they can be treated nicely,but humans are very fan jian

you treat them too nice...

what you'll get is just more wei qu...

I hate being too nice in the sense,people will think that you're an easy target..

People start to give you a good head start impression,

but after you know them well...Alot of stupid stuffs will come out

And in my opinion,I personally hate this...

Everyday is not a bright day,

people will tend to think that your life is very good

and they admire and envy you...

But you're not happy with your life at all...

With more than 1 thoughts of something...

With a powerful mind that can control you...

This will cause personal stress to yourself...

People are just too deceiving...

They can even deceive their own thoughts.

Joke...

Life is not a show but a variety joke show,

which people are unable to laugh,

but to be laughed at

What a wonderful day...

2009-08-13T07:13:00.002-07:00

Had a wonderful day...

After school,planned to steamboat...

And finally it worked,worked so nicely that i can hardly imagine that it happens

Haha Harry,kc,ky,gerard,ck and me

Too bad,En wasn't here...

If he comes,things will become more fun...

After the steamboat,

took some pictures,and went to the rooftop and bought beer up

went on drinking and play cai quan LOL

fun sia...

then played catching...LOL harry is like a expert monkey hanging around

Ck has a clear mind and very resourseful :O

LOL

thats the day that i went through overall.

It was a memorable and unforgettable day that happened lately...

the clique feels so tired...

No activity,no slacking and no nothing...

HAHA but finally!

it worked well

What a wonderful day...

2009-08-13T07:13:00.001-07:00

Time flies

2009-08-12T05:29:00.001-07:00

A blink of an eye,

And I finally reached here,

being unable to foresight yet have lived for so long to what i felt...

many things happened lately...

with much hypocrite in life...people will never take you seriously...

Make your decision before thinking...

Don't try to be funny,Cause you're not...

you're being a joke in my face...

Don't think that you're cool and humorous...

I can tell you in your face that you don't fit to be a human...

Hope you'll think properly or else you'll sucked up...

Just don't get it why people who are serious to life just don't like others who are of the same kind as them...

hypocrite

Not true to human lives...

you're an insult to my bare eyes

Hungry

2009-08-11T00:48:00.000-07:00

Woah after a day of school

Tried beatbox-ing in art lessons...

Omg i was too nervous..

I swear i gonna buy a mic at home

LOL

Okay right after school,went to take cig with cw,had some puffs..

then tried tapping...LOL he deproved..

Then went back home after that,

in that mean time,

Was hungry dehydrated

Bye gonna eat my lunch now LOL bye~

Empty post

2009-08-09T20:57:00.000-07:00

Feel so empty...

but yet complicated,

Had a bad day of sleep...

Can't sleep really very well..

The ice that chills my heart,

Is being a very painful,

but yet a useful remedy...The excruciating pain thats happening to me

Now and ever,

There's no excitement for me in life anymore...

Had to go on the flow,

I can't stop here now...I have to finish the story

Im like aimlessly walking but clear of what am I doing,

But if i really did something wrong

My whole game's gone...

Try to lead people that are lost..

to be able to go to the path that i found out that was safe...

Had a bottle of 1Litre HL milk...

Drank it...

And I'm gonna post it till now

I'm tired of being all alone,in this solitary moments makes want to come back home..

Trainning beatbox in progress..

2009-08-09T12:19:00.000-07:00

As for now..Currently a novice learning beatbox,mastering basic beats and some really cool stuffs,which is quite encouring and contending when I'm kinda showing off...^________________^just joking~LOL...but quite fast for my progress...
Last time i was san fen zhong re du...But now?it's not it anymore

1st day,with basic B beats
but after 1 month of learning,
B notes
t notes
Then improvising it into B-t-k-t-t-k-t-t-k-t-t-k-t-k-t-t-t-t~Cease-ease-eas-ea
Inward K snare
And a few cool beats that i found out

B B-K B-B-B-K-B-K B-B-B-K-B-K and so forth~Which i dont know how to type out and,
B-t-B-K-tbtbtb-k~

and some other new things that i learn from some tutorials that are really Pros in the sense that what am i hearing to is very cool..My dreams are pipping hot...Nobody can stop the beatbox fervor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats here from today,
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I'm mad and crazy already

2009-08-09T11:39:00.000-07:00

Haiis why do people will feel the pain after losing it for so long...I don't wanna say why anymore really,my mind hurts,my heart hurts even more...

I can't really face you anymore...you're like world's apart of me now,I have made my decision to stay like this forever and make myself in misery and not letting you know whats happening to me...

Wo bu pei!

Now speaking about friends,

Friends are like ban jiao shi...

They help you promote,

They can also make you fall in an instance...

So you gotta have a right choice to do anything

THINK before you do anything...

Friends are like poof

they can disappear in your sight in an instance

Make them feel that you're unforgettable

you'll not gonna be eliminated

and outdated

Wise man lasts

While the weaks

Eliminated...

The remorseful world with vast thoughts that caused this world with much evil and much pain

that no one can imagine that can hurt you so much that you can't even take it..

People are just lucky,they don't meet big bad wolfs...

but untill that day they meet,is the day they make a change,

wear an armor and ward of the enemy..

To everyone on this earth,

Grow up..

Fucked up

2009-08-07T23:03:00.000-07:00

I really get pissed of with someone in my face,though he's a clique friend..I just don't like him no matter what..He suck you know?He thinks he's cool..Ka pui ah although still treat him as friend but he's not my friend in my thoughts...

FUCKED UP

Had 2 days of going to east coast,first time:chen wei second time:gerard LOL it was quite occasion after all...

Was thinking about you.But you know what?I'm scared and I'm afraid that I can't even face you..So I really don't have the courage,I'm sorry..

I do not want to say the name out, but you know who you are, I won't be a good friend to you I can tell you...i give face to other people...You're just a fag in my mind. You think you're cool?

I can tell you la...you're a foolish Human that think you can understand human thoughts...

Look at mine and you'll thought that im useless..i wish i could tell you on your face that

you not even an inch of me..Haha funny right?But I'm not joking I can tell you..

After all,I'm not so simple by your punny human thoughts,

but I'm not god,

I'm just a person who can go further than you...

you're not a surviver

weakling...

A moments of folly

2009-08-06T11:05:00.001-07:00

Today had a long day and i don't want to mention it already..Because it's too long.LOL

Had been thinking of her...but i don't think there is any chance that it will happen again

The moment of folly,the pain that i feel now suddenly,the bastardness that i did...

I blame myself for doing so...I've never regret it but I've never wanted it to happen...

Why is this happening to me?I love you...but i dare not say it on your face...

Cus of the things that i've done...

It can't be removed nor time travelled

The hurt is there...

I'm sorry

Random

2009-08-03T21:50:00.000-07:00

I am thinking about someone.But i can't touch her..Love is about distance,as long as i know that i am thinking about her,Im happy with what i have now...Contended with the feelings i had for her and causing me to prevent her from hating me if she really will?

I don't really know what she's thinking but,I'm really scared if whatsoever thing that i say,would make her hate me...no choice but to burrow the feelings for her...couldn't forget her face,her smile,her everything...

Hate myself...Foolish thoughts by me isn't it?

A day with brothers..

2009-08-03T06:40:00.000-07:00

Had a fun day actually,
it was quite cool..
Today morning,
I went to gerard's house and spent time studying with ck,en,kc and gg...was quite discouraged by what i saw,en wasn't paying attention on his studies and he was just slacking around as he told us before that he couldn't study outside with friends around which is weird?
I was thinking..that can he study in school?he got quite lots of friends in school and..he could do well too LOL unless we're not his friends?LOL

After the study,we went on planning on eating sakae sushi which is at parkway LOL,went there by a bus(197)
and went pass grandlink and we're having a conversation about it..
about how we spent our childhood and memories there,memorable
..when reached,In an instance from I think that i saw was,gerard gulping and devouring the food very fast,and we called him to chill as we still have ample time because it was a buffet and we left about 2hrs++ eating?..
omg the food is so fulling,all that is about was rice but it was delicious,went on eating and when our stomachs are almost filling to the brim of our throats we made a wasabi sushi with a scope another of topping with WASSASASABIBIBIBI~
and placed it on top of the sushi,
played scissors papper stone OMG,
luckily i was not the one.
It was en and kc,they were both quite full but en managed to finish it and kc didn't,he left out alot..and after that we continued playing again..caused gerard to eat it..After eating it..

he said he was going to the toilet as he was gonna puke..oMg it was so disgusting,when i enter the toilet i could already smell the foul rotten cat shit's aroma...and saw the puddle of puke on the floor OMG..actually i wanted to enter the stupid toilet?and he puked at it...

After everything we went on paying the bill,it was $84.39?maybe?LOL but it was quite a meal after all LOL we all were full and went to popular and bought weapons for tmr's english exam..
Was worrying if i could pass or not,but no worries,as it is still prelim...

hais after a long day..im tired,lethargic and breathless...
haha gonna sleep soon bye!

today's review

2009-08-02T07:36:00.000-07:00

This early morning,i went jogging with gerard..Hai tired but still went on with it. After running,I went playing some exercising games with him like pushing around and takedowns..which caused him to injure his arm but me...

I was the pathetic one,when i wanted to take him down,he countered me and made me fell but i didn't feel anything at all,but i felt cooling,and before what I knew..my pant's was torn and the running was cancelled and after that we're on the way to his house,LOL wad a shame.. Went on with the funeral,quite saddening knowing that my jiu gong is dead and i and my father was like abit of facing the fact of life that one day we will part or something...hahas okay ba don't think so far.. then went on with macdonalds,had a meal which costs a bomb to me and caused to bankrupt LOL Hai.Ck,GG,KC and most of all!ME!went on with studying at mac,after that we went on slacking on the playground.It was quite fun after all today but with a tiring day...gonna sleep soon,eyes are soaring..too tired to continue on BYE BYE!

what a tiring day..

2009-08-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

Hi,LOL yesterday when after meeting cw,jacob and ron i went paya lebar and meet ky,lol was a coincidence that i suddenly wanna meet him and just nice he was able to wait me and paya lebar.

Was a long trip but a short conversation..quite interesting as we're talking about life and some nonsense haha but it was quite fun after all?erm..went his house and watched the new yang chen ling(rainie yang) show LOL..for awhile later went cooking noodles and went on for a rest till tmr morning..

Didn't know ah bao was so lame..still wanna watch pokemon,but we manage to pull him out and went on to AH(anglican high) for alfacourse omg today so PAISEH lol they call me go up and act..i don't dare,if i were to have jeston elephant skin i would have gone up LOLs..

but then after the thingy we went to suntec for another service,at the free time..we went to mac and i order 1 double chocolate frappe!omg sucha waste of money la $4.70 sia..i was thinking if i bought 2 double cheeseburger i would be dam full after that...omg but i didn't haha...

so went on on a stupid place we stucked there and kc and sheng en went on in a quite exhilarating(not sure how to spell?) ride kc was like a kid omg keep on wa here wa there but overall,quite interesting and funny LOL.

Quite a long story isn't it?haha ok theres still more to it..We went to the second service which was quite fun at start and started to know some people there?they were intro-ing themselves and we're intro-ing ourselves too so overall its ok!..haha went in and it was quite high out there
but when the pastor was preaching i was near fell asleep and kc was sleeping already!saw his saliva come out and he suck it up omg thats ewww~LOL but it was quite boring for me accept for the funny parts and i went on lending the earpiece and handphone from ah bao was listening to some nice music from 9.13fm and it made me more energetic and i carried on with the songs untill it was already ending soon and so we went out..

after that..we splitted ways sheng en and his sis were going to have a meal with there family?(i think so?)LOL and we went on the rockery,the food and drinks there look fresh and it quite tempted me to borrow some money and have a spegetti or something?LOL...it reminds me of my past whr i go bugis with guo liang and we went eating rockery after everytime we finished from lan OMG i was so happy with the feeling back again...haha but time never flows back.we went back home after that and got a news from my dad that my jiu gong is dead!sad..hais..people will leave someday so do i?..hais so i leave here le bye bye

Back from past times

2009-07-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

I'm back again,i think so?LOL okay..I will be permanently using this blog already and if i forget to use it again..i'm gonna quit it!cus'iamsofuckinlazytopostintheblogwhichcausedmetofuckinghatetowastemytime

bye!..